First: I do not have regular internet access, so it probably will take at least a good week for me to get back on anything.
Now that that's out of the way, how does male sexual arousal work for you within a female body? I know that one of the other male headmates just tends to trigger all sorts dripping wet crotch goo just by thinking about sexual things, and while I do that as well, apparently I caused SEVERE pain by becoming highly aroused myself. Right. I understand human anatomy to the point of what specfic tissues develop into what when a fetus goes through its gender differenciation phase, and in a female body, basically the clitoris corresponds to the head (tip) of the penis and the G-spot corresponds to the base end, but the full organ lies entirely within the female body. Apparently, I got so turned on that my female headmate felt like the full length of the organ was trying to rip its way out of the bottom of her pelvis, and since I live in a body that's gone through childbirth, and she's got some severe pain tolerance herself, feeling the amount of pain that she was in is really saying A LOT!
She yelled at me for that, told me to get front and deal with my own damned issue, but I'm an extreme masochist (enjoy pain), and was currently aroused by thought of pain, so that didn't quite work out right. (There's actually still some residual pain, even though that was around 3 days ago. I'm really bad with time, so I'm not exactly sure if it's really 3 days.)
I don't even know if I'm looking for advice, but she wanted me to write up something about this, so there it was.
BTW, hi. This is my first entry here.
There's a war brewing in here. The council's in session; the slaughterhouse is open; the girl with no face is screaming and sobbing again. The slaughterhouse is not mine. I merely found it open and tossed in the body parts and meat hooks for atmosphere. I have done no harm to the girl with no face - she has neither mind, soul, nor life. She is nothing more than a bad horror movie prop. This isn't making much sense, is it? I'll try to explain.
There's this whole head world in here: a large main room which rearranges itself according to the situation at hand, so it currently looks like a council chamber with the big long table surrounded by high-backed chairs for us to sit in while we discuss life events and come to a decision, then there's a long corridor of doors off of the right side, white walls with red doors, some of the rooms behind the doors are people's rooms, some of them are "other," such as the slaughterhouse and the room with the girl with no face (more on her later), and then off to the left of the main room are portals to other worlds and such where some of our members are from or go to when they don't want or need to be here. There's other stuff in here, but I haven't explored all of it yet. There's things more important than that going on right now.
A war brewing in here is a very bad thing. It's pretty standard to have regular uprisings by the undesireable, irresponsible members in here so that the more responsible members have to rise up and slap their nasty little asses back down, and it's even normal for responsible members to have little disagreements over things and have to work them out or decide who's desires are going to get acted on. Total war is different. This has happened before. It tends to happen in uncertain, potentially dangerous situations. Responsible members try to deal with the situation effectively, and some of them say "Stay" and some of them say "Go," and at some point, the ones that said "Go" get sick of the body staying and leave internally, whether by taking off through one of the portals or shutting themselves in their rooms and taking "long naps." Last time this happened, we got left with someone very newly into existence and not really capable yet of handling things on her own stuck at front all alone. She very quickly went into a severe depression and damned near let life fall completely apart over the course of the next few months. That's all past history for another time, For the here and now, there's already been at least one strong capable member who's said, "I'm out" and is on the verge of leaving. Life situation needs to either change or be bailed out of with the entire body in the very near future. I personally will act in either direction, for a while, and just keep voicing my opinions, but if this does look like it's turning very very bad, I will remove the entire body from the situation, whether everyone agrees or not.
So about the girl with no face - I don't know what her purpose is. You'll be wandering around headspace, hear sobbing, go check it out, open that door, and see the skinny girl with long dark hair sitting on the floor with her back to you crying. You talk to her, no response, so you go up and try to get her attention, touch her shoulder, and she turns around and screams and where her face should be, there's just this bloody mess of razor-edged tentacles or wires that shoot out and cut you. Everybody else in here is terrified of her and runs away at that point, but she doesn't chase you, she doesn't do anything except that one initial cheap horror movie effect, then she goes completely motionless until the room resets. So I stuck around to see if there was anything more to her than that, if there was a consciousness there, and I got rather brutal with some of my methods. Whatever. She's not an actual person or living thing that can be hurt, and we now know that she's not one of us, not yet another new member of this head. We need to know information like that!